surprise surprise

hi! my friend ch was leaving so i changed my ticket and left with her the next day! so now i'm home. i surprised my parents and called sebby to pick me up from the pgh airport... they were really surprised. it was a good way to leave and avoid a lot of the sadness and dread of leaving a place and a whole existence. i didn't get to say goodbye to lots of people, for the better i think. i have to call ju from here because i didn't have the heart to tell her that i was skipping town early because she was taking her finals... i was happy to minimize the wanting to puke/leaving feeling to 24 hours instead of a week or two... and it was nice to chat with ch on the plane about other things until amsterdam and not really think about leaving...

now i'm home. nice to see mom and dad and sebby. but everything here is big and fast and i'm a little bit scared. hopefully, it'll go away in a week or so- otherwise maybe i'm going crazy.

i hate transition... but at least i have more time to get over it/spend time with people- instead of rushing etc before starting school at the end of august.

thanks for reading my things... it's helped me a lot and made me feel in touch.

so i hope i see all of you soon... i have to get my cellphone working again- then i'll give you a call... but i've really been moving pretty slowly.

love, ganga